shouting out loud =(

it've been a long time since i've updated anything

of course.. everyone would start with a sorry to the blog readers

for privating my blog

well.. it's because i didn't update anything

so don't want yall to waste time reading

you know something..

both my besties ah chin and yy

told me that i am still me..

but i'm not convinced

ya.. i am still Carmen..

did i smile everyday?? No

did i joke everyday?? No

one and only thing its the same..

i still use the same old piano to express my angre..

*sorry my piano for toturing you*

studies..

i don't think i've done anything as well..

homeworks..

Nope.. still the lazy old me

although i really can't think what have i done

until some people told me

"Carmen, you've changed a lot"

=( i know they do mean in a bad way..

i'm so disappointed on myself..

i don't know how to change back nor do anything to be my own self again..

i'm sorry guys

just accept me for who am i